Ev3RytHinG iN FeLz PiXie's LiFe

just my 1st boring post after a long time not exist here...

2009-11-14T06:40:00.000-08:00

long time already I dun post anythin here...
so many thing that missed...
but I keep it...
my tears falling down too much...
too many problems to fix...
I'm stress out... really...
n about my relation...
I ever have relationship with sum1, just called him Mr.B...
now, he already hates me damn much... coz we broke up...
actually, I regret... really regret broke up with him...
I love him, but... ah... it's over now...
evrything seems too late... regret always come late...
now, I have new BF... called him Mr. H...
I dunno what kind of feelin I feel...
but I keep stay with him, although he makes me cries...
although he makes me disapponted...
although he makes me angry..
I've tried hard to give him a chance... n give him apologize...
I just dun want regret like my relationship before...
really not...
am I right? or wrong?? so confused... @_@

I also have sum problem about my study...
I still feel lazy n can't focus...
I waste my time too much...
now, I must work hard for it...
I wish... I can fix it, n study well...

Sick...

2009-07-21T12:29:00.001-07:00

controvers

wif my cousin, Vanessa

just act

huaaa... I got sick...
really bad... >_<
complication from fever, cough, flu, n dizzy...
OMG...
but 2day I still have dance practice...
yesterday.. I stay overnite @ my cousin place...
I celebrated her mom bday... n took sum pic...

2009-07-17T02:19:00.000-07:00

ahhh...
bomb evrywhere...
Jakarta city is really2 not safe... >_<
hate bombers so much... huhuhu
I can't go anywhere bcoz them...

today I've sharing wif my old frenz...
she's also my best frenz...
haahh... so miss all 'd time that we had 2gether...

Flash back 2 my old memories, start from my memory wif my besties, my ex bf, my bro, n my another frenz (included my fb frenz). that's make me smile n cry in 'd same time (look like crazy people). wanna say thx 4 them, Thx 4 fill my life n makes my time feel so precious. I wouldn't change that moment with everything. Bcoz that's all can't bought by money. it's really priceless... no matter what...

XoXo
<3>

2009-07-16T10:20:00.000-07:00

today is sooo much fun... ^^
but also so much tired....
I already watched HarPot movie...
I'm in love with 'd actor who cast as Cormac Mc Laggen...
OMG... so handsome... feel Melt when I saw his face... >_<
I also took sum pic wif my frenz...
(4 another, I post @ my fb http://www.facebook.com/felz.pixie)
I hope our frenship never end... <3

flat day... -.-

2009-07-15T05:18:00.000-07:00

huah.. 2day I woke up so late... >_<
damn! It make me couldn't see my Junior (dance) demo 4 MOS...
so regret...
2day I didn't do anything.... n go anywhere...
so bored... so I took sum nu pic... n post @ my FB acc...
2moro I'll go to Grand Indonesia 4 watch HarPot...
I dun really excited... bcoz I dun like kind of movie like HarPot...
I just follow my besties... n wanna hang around with them...
bcoz my frenz Fayne n CizK will continue their study far away from Jakarta...
Fayne 2 Beijing n CizK 2 Solo...
so I hope we can enjoy our time 2gether b4 they go...

2009-07-14T05:23:00.001-07:00

just me

Zie (my bestie, my stylist, etc :P) n Me

Icha (people usually say that we look like twins, do u agree??) n me

fiuh... today I'm so tired...
I went 2 my univ (UnTar)
but I was too late...
so 2moro I go 2 UnTar again...

I takes sum pic.. (so ugly >_<)

Gud Morning, Insomnia....

2009-07-13T15:21:00.000-07:00

huaaaaaa.... really hate my bad habit...
INSOMNIA... >_<
I feel so tired...
but still can't sleep... -.-'
dunno what can I do 4 handle it....
my eyes becomes like a panda... @_@

actually sumtimes I feel lucky have "Insomnia"
bcoz I could meet many new friends who had Insomnia too
they're really nice... n create smile on my face...
makes me laugh although I have a bad day...
thx so much....
thx also 4 my besties... proud having besties like them ('d best things I've ever had)
I can't do anything... just say "thx 4 everything"
thx a lot 4 all my friends...
<3>

have u ever???

2009-07-13T12:01:00.000-07:00

have u ever lookin' 4 sumthin'
but dunno what....???

have u ever want 2 run away
but dunno where 2 b...???

have u ever feel wanna cry
but dunno 4 what...???

have u ever lookin' 4 sum1
but dunno who...???

have u ever try 2 4get
but dunno how...???

have u ever feel so complicated
but dunno why...???

2009-07-13T11:31:00.000-07:00

today I feel so bad.... really...
I'm tired... I'm sick...
I lose my control.. lose my mind 4 a while...
I feel so empty inside...
n being Melancholic person... (ugh! hate this so much. seems so stupid >_<)

this month mayb isn't a memorable month 4 others...
but it's really memorable 4 me...
I got hurt this month...
feel like dumped... dumped by sum1 for unreasonable...
but it's okayh... my life must go on...
although it feel damn hurt! (it's true)
"sorry" wouldn't recover my pain... it doesn't work...
it makes me trauma... try hard 2 4get it... (hope I can)

I try to always smile... whatever what I feel...
that's makes me seems so tough... (n I'm proud of it)
I usually say 2 myself, "It's okay... It's gonna b allright..."
just 4 makes me feel calm...
but my heart say 'd different... not sure 'bout that...

Don't say...

2009-07-13T11:04:00.000-07:00

Don't say " PROMISE"
if u not sure u can prove it...

Don't say "WILL"
if u not sure willing do anything...

Don't say "ALWAYS"
if u not sure what will happen in 'd future...

Don't say "LOVE"
if u not sure u'll take care of that...

Don't say "U"
if u not sure s/he is 'd only 1...

So...

Don't say "I PROMISE WILL ALWAYS LOVE U"
if it doesn't mean 'd same...

2009-07-13T10:00:00.001-07:00

Life is so suckz...
I hate it... really do...
but too love it if sum1 asked me 4 throw it away...

XoXo,
<3 FeLz PiXie <3